30 August 2007

Princess, God is everywhere!!

I have finished my first week as "Miss", "Lady", "Busdriver", and "D12" (dispatch calls me by my bus number). Just want to share how very sweet Jesus is..I know that most of you know, but for a moment I want to try to let you see HIM through my eyes.

God has been taken out of the schools, and children are no longer encouraged to believe in HIM, and HE shouldn't be mentioned. I have been amazed at how HE can work with that! There is mothers group who prays regularly together, for the schools that thier children are in...The children in Middles school and High School have started a Bible study/ prayer group, and the school had to let them as it falls under interest, and/or clubs...freedom of religion and all that political correctness we are forced to look at. So I have been thrilled at what has been happening with our children. We live in a fairly small community, both groups have an attendance of about 30-40 kids each week. Praise you Jesus!

At the bus company I have found about 30% of the drivers are Christian, and are reaching out to the children before and after school. I had to laugh this morning while I thought of this. Driving into the sunrise, praising God...and then just laughing! That is just like HIM -- tell HIM HE can't come in! The nerve of humans telling an almighty God what HE can do. He is surrounding it with HIMself in drivers, and infiltrating it with kids who are so anointed by the Spirit, and who have a boldness. They look out for each other, and give one another a smile, and companionship in a place where they normally would be alone. God is incredible!!

Today....I looked through my mirrors as always, and asked the LORD to just look after these children today, and not let one of them leave this planet without HIM. My heart just started to break for the ones with sadness and anger first thing in the morning. One of my five year olds who is near tears everyday...smiled today, and it was huge! I told her I have waited all week to see that! Don't you dare make we wait next week to see it again. She stopped on her way out of the bus and gave me a hug...she whispered "thanks for not letting the bad people get me"... My reply was simple.."I would not let them get you, are you out of your everlovin little mind!!..." she laughed, and I just said keep the beautiful smile going..and off she went. The HS girl I told you about, asked today if she looked nice..and she did. Today was her picture day, and she didn't feel very pretty. I told her "you may not feel pretty but sweeti you are drop dead gorgeous! You better have a talk to your feelings and tell them to get in line!" She left with a smile today too. Thank you Jesus! Do you love HIM so?? I am so crazy about HIM! HE just wipes little ones tears, and babies scared of the bad people, and teenagers who have no self esteem-He gives them a happy heart, and smile of confidence. I know HE pursues them just like me...I pray that they will let HIM catch them, and become all that HE has planned for them!

Been working on some other outreach things for the church, and getting things lined up to begin taking others with me in moving through the nieghorhood. All my apprehension is gone, and I just hear HIM (spiritual ears of course), they are going to come, I will bring them. You know, I am believing HIM!

Sorry I haven't gotten my pics from RI on yet...new pc, running Vista...and some of my programs are not working properly...so back to troubleshooting, and seeking out more drivers to work with Vista...so hopefully sometime this weekend!

Princess, God is everywhere! Let that settle on you for a minute...we sometimes quote scripture about HIM hemming us in..but make it personal, and try to visualize what that must look like..and dance...let no fear stop you, dream BIG, love like you were created for, sing even if it sounds terrible to you (it sounds beautiful to HIM), show tenderness and kindness it goes so much further than preaching "your all going to hell". Pray to see strangers around you through the eyes of Jesus. Ask HIM to break your heart over things that break HIS. Join us in the Dance! Yes somethings are difficult, but never too difficult for my GOD..after all HE got kicked out of school, and just created another way in...and now HE is more of a fixture than before. Don't you just love how HE always gets the last word! I do!! Princess HE will never send you out on a limb that HE will not climb out there beside you..HE loves you so much HE died for you, because HE didn't want to face eternity without you! Thats personal! Princess to Princess :)

28 August 2007

Princess- buses, mountains and valleys?

The KING and I have been up to many things lately and that has slowed down my blog. School has started and the two I still have at home both started a new school. One in High School, and one in Middle School, so my new job started as well, I drive the bus for the same School District. I know why the LORD has me doing this now, and I have seen so many sad children in the last two days. So I am the annoying Bus lady that smiles and says goodmorning, and tells them to have a nice day, and asks them about their day when they get back on at the end of the day. I am surprised at the amount of children who positively respond. Today a HS student told me that her mother doesn't ask how her day was...but after a moment she was back telling me all about it. A woman who works with me, told me she recently lost her husband and moved to PA from Idaho, to just start life again...I invited her to Bible Study with the women's group. I think she will come. I am seriously a creature of habit! I like to get my laundry done twice a week and clean my house before the weekend, b/c I like to take the mad chill !! I have not been able to figure out a schedule yet that works and still gives me down time. Probably some chores should be done, awwwwwww but you all are so much fun, and so encouraging that I just want to visit with you!

The KING is teaching me to move each step with HIM, and that all my plans have to be ready for demolition if HIS are not the same. HE and I are working through the Outreach and the directions for it...I know with all my heart that HE has the plan that works, and the one that is best. Tam made a comment on the last post about always having a Mountain top experience. Man I want to buy that! But here is my thinking....I do think HIS presence is always with us, and sometimes it is more noticeable than other times. I just know that some experiences that I call "Mountian top" are better than any drug this world has to offer, and the if HE doesn't take me off the mountain I will surely OD!! I can not take that much of a Holy God in this earthly body, so I will look forward to having those moments, and understand that it is a taste of Heaven, and a little more motivation to keep fighting the good fight. This Christian walk is full of valleys and rough terrain, and those are the times that we grow in our faith. I do believe Tam and I are on the same page, and she helped me to realize I had not made the statement clearly.

Father God, Yaweh, Abba, My KING,
It is well with my soul! I am willing to take the rough roads, and the valleys knowing that they will lead me closer to you, and to my mountain tops with you. End result - I will live in the house of the LORD forever! I watched faces today that were touched by kindness (that was you), and I watched as you worked in my children. I love that you love that much, and that even our smallest details of our day, you orchestrate. Thank you for teaching me to dance with you, and as hard as the lessons are, I would not trade one of them! I adore you my KING! Thanking you for watching over me while I sleep, and singing over me when I follow. How great is my GOD! How awesome you are, and there is no other! Light a fire in me that will only cause others to want what I have-YOU! Your Princess who loves all that You are, and wants to continue to come closer!

26 August 2007

Princess, I AM your EVERYTHING!

Came home last night after a long (and I do mean long 8+ hours)ride from Rhode Island, and the LPL conference. Upon arriving home I was humbled again at the mighty hand of God and how HE delivers me even when I am so unaware. I missed a tornado that didn't do major damage like some in the south, but not like we are used to at all. We couldn't get through the highway that would have taken us straight to my home due to it blocked off. So I was totally dumb to the fact that what was going on was more than another accident on the highway(although that is not good either, but common). I was tired and cranky, and just wanted to be home! Missed my children and hubs so much! If our tour bus would have been on time (30minutes behind schedule due to traffic), I may have driven right into the destruction that closed the highway. God is incredibly good, and even when I am whining (for cryin out loud)!

The conference was about EVERYTHING! haha I laughed when Beth first told us that would be the word in summary to what we would learn. Here is some of the things that God laid on my heart through that time.

I am already empowered by HIM to do all that HE calls me to. I have to speak it and do it, and believe that whatever I need at any given time HE is it and has it, and EVERYTHING is in HIS hand and under HIS control. IF there is anything that does not fall under EVERYTHING then I may be in control of that! LOL Funny how I totally understood that thinking! HE was very loud to me about how I am not the only one who the enemy tries to pull and distract. (all though I know that...the enemy has a way of making me feel like I am totally incompetent.) I am embracing that and the enemy can shoot off all he wants...and it may even be true...but my God is EVERYTHING, and HE is more than competent to carry out all that HE says! I am humbled at the message that Beth delivered, and although I know God spoke to every one who would listen, I am totally amazed and blown away at how taylored it all seemed to be for me...from the first word, to the last...and everything in the middle.

I watched as HE changed hearts and I think 42 came to Christ. One heart changed is huge and only My KING can do that! I watched as other hearts were softened to HIM, and I love that look of submission to the LORD. Something you truly can not fake! LOL I am over joyed with the outcome, and all the awesome things I saw and did while I was there. I met up with Shelly, and what a sweet heart she is!! I love that the Lord has put her on my heart and we are praying her through! ( I will get some pics on when I get a chance) And I got to shake hands with Travis, and even talk to him for a minute.

My KING, YOU are EVERYTHING, and my EVERYTHING! There is nothing I will ever need that you will not give to me. Your power lives in me and I need to live through you. How very awesome you are to care so deeply about me. You know I hate coming off the mountian and I just want to stay in your arms and keep breathing in your glorious compassion. I know I need to move now back to the task set before me. Keeping you first in my mind, and your word in my heart. Thank you for setting me free, and for sending me out to help others to turn to you and also find freedom. YOU are mighty to save! The enemy is under my feet in Jesus Name, and my heart looks forward to the day when we all can stay with you and not have to walk through a cursed world, and see the damage of spiritual tornadoes. In my eyes the pictures are just as devastating. Thank you for your mercy, Oh how we need to bless your Name in the wilderness' of our life...and just keep praising you. Thank you for always being at work and never sleeping, for looking after even the finest detail...a starbucks next to my hotel...I was totally smiling at YOU! Love you my EVERYTHING KING, YOUR Princess who means EVERYTHING to YOU!

22 August 2007

I have been awarded this by Faith at The Great Aventure! She is the one that is so nice! Thanks Faith! If you haven't read her blog, I am plugging it now!

This is kind of funny at my home that I would get this award! I am sure I say at least once a week, that "I am nice!" Seems that speaking the truth sometimes comes with an edge (and God is working on me in that area). And lots of times people just don't want to hear Truth. I grew up in the city so my speech is definitely harsh to people who have always lived in Suburbia, or in the country their whole life..but "I am still nice!" LOL My hubs will get a good laugh out of this. :)

I have been encouraged here by many many of my sisters in Christ, and all of them are nice, I am going to attempt to pick four (only four?). I am now giving this award to Leah-The Point, Deborah-deborah's encouragement, Deb-God's gal, Tam-In Progress! Okay yall have an awesome day and "Be Nice". I know you are, some of us alittle misunderstood, isn't it great that God knows the heart!?!

20 August 2007

Princess, Mighy Warrior?

God is good all the time! And I mean all the time!! Even when I think it totally stinks, and my circumstances are less than comfortable, my GOD is good! I love that HE doesn't ever change up, or lie about anything. I love that HE is trustworthy. I love that HE gives me what I need sometimes before I know I need it. I love that HE loves me enough to sit me down and have a heart to heart when I start to wander off.

We have been very busy lately with sports, and school to begin soon, which means my new job starts soon too! Bible study will begin in a few weeks, leading Daniel (Beth Moore) with a new group of women. Reaching out to my neighborhood will officially kicks off with some newbies in a couple weeks. I am very grateful to the Lord for giving me a few people who want to reach out and just don't know how. I am sure the Lord will show HIM self to them mightily!

I was reminded today in my quiet time of Gideon. The Lord called him "Mighty warrior", and I totally related to him saying "I am the least of these". Seems that is HIS favorite kind to show off for...so off we go with our small army of love, and hoping to show others a different picture of Christianity, and hope, healing, and provision. A sweet friend of mine sent me a stickynote today that said "...mighty woman of God.." and I cried b/c I had just had that conversation with God. I love how HE confirms HIM self! So I am all Eph 6'd (God's gal thanks for reminding me), and think I will start my day with that reminder.

If you want some totally awesome digging on your own...check out Princess Gods Gal and her "BLT's"( on my princess list). I am longing for more time to dig with her! I am so blessed by so many Godly women on this blog! I am just in awe of my awesome King, and how HE encourages me through so many of you! Thanks for your faithfulness to HIM, and your obedience in speaking the truth. Thank you for your prayers and please keep them coming! I may never get the chance to meet you all in person here on earth, but I am sure I will not only meet you in heaven but I will know you...."we be gettin our party on!", dancing around the throne! It is all going to be worth it...HE is going to worth it! Stay focused..all eyes on HIM, Princess you are a mighty warrior, go in the name of JESUS!

**must read--Princess Deborah (deborah's-encouragement-also on Princess list), her Meme's are the best...and I will do one later. but scroll through her some of her writings...my favorite- "One high heel and one slipper" absolutely love it and the reminder of balance in our life..love ya dolla!

17 August 2007

Princess, Be Real!

Lately it seems that a time of sitting at HIS feet has become more and more a necessity. The last few days I really needed to draw closer to HIM. Have you ever visited FriendlyChristian.com? For me I have to visit it in moderation as it has the same affect on me as "argueing with a Pharisee". My faith started to shake. So internet was shut down, and moderating comments from email was all I allowed myself. The site is very good, and the guy conducting the dscussions I believe is on the right track, and is need of our prayers on a daily basis.

What happened to the "church" in Acts? Where did the thinking and passion go? Why are we so stuck in routine and schedules?? I remember once the bulletin for church could not be printed, and it caused so much of a problem for some people...got very ugly! And don't even go there if the service is running past the designated time of 11:30am! Well dinner will burn...all about food, or the race is starting and as an avid fan leaving church is acceptable! None of this is happening at the church I am active in, but it has happened at another church I attended. After visiting Friendly Christian, I had to look at what people think of us as Christians. None of which I had not heard before, but something about global entries, and hearing the same view from so many, rocked my boat!

I know all the right answers-spiritually, and I get it! truly, my hang up is how and when will we as a body (not individuals) get it! The great commission is not for some and for others write a check. I cannot find one verse that says go ahead and write a check and then go home and stay in your complacency and all is good. I am aware that some of what they see is the enemy and the blinders he has on them, but alot of it is truth about the Bride. Honestly, I fear for her. We have been so blessed, and we take our KING for granted, and just think we can continue to ask for anything and do nothing the way HE has laid it out. If it did not work for Israel in the Old testament , why would it work for us! We have so many idols, and although they don't sit on a shelf, they live in our hearts. And the worst part to me is non-believers are watching us as we disregard what our King has said, and we think we are smart enough to debate HIM!

I have had some serious Holy Fear! How much will HE take of our disobedience, when will we wake up as HIS body and take our place, serve where HE sends us, and go face down before our Creator. There truly is none like HIM and none more powerful. I love the whole love aspect of my God as much as anyone. But there are so many other characteristics in HIM, and HE truly can multitask! HE is all of HIS characteristics at once. My head can't even grasp that!

We as a body are making a statement to the world but not the one we are supposed to. They see us as frauds, a money making business, and an elite club.

Princess lets start with us...let's be real ! Let's start today to commit to being what HE wants us to be, and walking in HIS shadow. Disregarding all things that would come between HIM and ourselves. Let's love each other, and help those who have fallen-not shoot them. Let's be real! This is a difficult road at times, and we need eachother to keep going on it. Let's lay down our idols, and worship the only one worthy of it. Or as any good father would do when rebellion sets in...HE is going to reprimand us, and leave us on our own to our own thinking. And yes HE will, it is all through the Bible (OT) rebellion required a time of bondage...(NT) the church is warned..HE will take away our lampstand....Read the first few chapters of Revelation and remember it is a letter to the churches...we are one...which one do we fall into??? Reality check for me.

Love you and I know we have so much more to live for, and so much more to do, and so much more to know and love about HIM. Have a great day in the LORD, BE REAL!!

14 August 2007

Thankful heart, and laughter!

I know it is only Tuesday but I am thankful today! so here is my list of thankfulness.

I am thankful for :
-my children, who think I am old as dirt. :)
-my noble Knight, who provides and is my best friend.
-my home, so many homeless people in the world.
-the change in temperature (PA has had 103 temps with the worst humidity)
-my Bible that I can freely carry anywhere, and the hope it gives.
-the privilege to pray to God and that HE hears and answers.
-the privilege to attend church.
-my Pastor who has been a picture of Jesus to me.
-the Bible study women who think I need to continue to be thier leader.
-God's mercy that is new every morning(i always need a truck load)
-being able to have a new day.
-knowing HIM and having the blessing to know HIM more!
- Rhode Island tickets including a bus transportation so I don't even have to drive!
-new job to start in a couple weeks-the bus driving saga continues!
-pets who are a picture of what unconditional love must look like.
-Beth Moore studies, and looking forward to Esther.
-laughter, it really is good medicine for the soul!
-our new car that starts every time I get in it.
-my blog sisters, how very much they encourage and bless my heart(laughter again).
-for a new roof...let the rain begin
-my heart that is thankful this morning.

A little comic relief this morning. My little man (who I will have to stop calling that soon as he looks me in the eyes), has started football. I have nothing against football, I just have been lost in why he wanted to play. He is active and loves sports, but self discipline is not his strongest suit. As I watch him practice and hear him complain about his aches and pains, I just want to know why? Very seriously, he reminded me that he is getting older now(11), and well he heard his sisters talking and is convinced that "babes" love football players, and when he gets older he wants one! haha I did not laugh in front of him at that point. But then he continued...looking around the room..."I don't want my own Babe right now, when you get one you have to buy them all this stuff!" then I laughed! So in all his serious painful effort we are going to practice, and I can't help but wonder...Are the "babes" worth it? He is very sure they are! :) When he was younger, he asked if I had a dinosaur for a pet when I was a kid. hahaha I am 45 but I am not that old! Little boys are so different from little girls, and I don't have a preference, but God has shown me some awesome things through a little boys eyes! :) They really don't learn to be little boys in gym class, it is born in them! What a gift he is to me!

Have a good day in the Lord, and have a thankful heart, and don't forget to laugh! Laughter is a gift!

13 August 2007

Princess, stand in Awe

We leave the radio on in the kitchen always, I am not sure why we do that except maybe the dog needs company and is confined to the kitchen. :) It is always on a Christian Contemporary Radio station, so this morning while in search for my coffee, it spoke to my heart. "Stand in Awe and worship, come adore, King of kings and Lord of lords". Praying this morning for a heart that will constantly stand in Awe of my Awesome God. The world just pulls us in so many different directions, and the negative seems to out weigh the postive most days, but the focus is to stand in Awe and worship! Music ministers to my soul in great proportions, and I do thank HIM for giving me song in my heart, and praise on my lips. GOD is so very good to me and I am so undeserving of anything. I love that most about HIM this morning. God is happy with God, and therefore it pleases HIM to call me HIS own, to adopt me into HIS family, and to put my feet on solid ground.

I spoke of the out reach in earlier posts, and wanting to start with the children in my area. I have stressed over boards in the church, I have stressed over prayer support...and this morning I am repentant for unbelief. What I felt was the first step proved to be no step...hahaha God totally opened the door, and all we had to do was walk through it! Prayer support-God provided in my siesta sistas, dollas, diva princess'. I saw with my own eyes yesterday the power of your prayers, and I thank you for interceeding on our behalf. I love how the whole thing works, although I don't understand it and don't think I want to...I think I would rather stand in Awe and worship our Father of Unfailing Love, who does not send us with out HIS own plan in place. HE does not fail us!

My King, Yahweh, Abba,
It is a gift just to stand in Awe and worship You. In all your power and beauty, I am overwhelmed in the fact that You move Heaven and Earth on our behalf. "who is man that you would be mindful of him"...thank you that you are so very detailed in our lives. Forgive my foolishness and unbelief, if there is any pride in me, please bring it in my face and deal with it. I know that the road to You is not the easier of the two, but it is the blessed one, resulting in crossing the finish line and You are my great Reward! Thank you for my sisters in You, and how they encourage me, and for the prayer cover you have provided. Thank you for opening the door, and allowing us to see it and walk through. Thank you for the sunshine this moring that is such an awesome display of your faithfulness to me, and a constant reminder to walk in Your light. Jesus, again today I want more than anything to live for you, and to be a picture of YOU to someone else. Touch my lips with coal from your altar, and purify me to stand in your presence-the presence of my HOLY GOD, and stand in Awe and worship. Send me. Overwhelmed in your Goodness, Your Princess

10 August 2007

Princess, walk in the Light

The King is aware that this Princess is afraid of the dark! After living in the dark kingdom most of my life with exception to the last 8-10 years, I absolutely love the Light! Last night, after much discussion with my son and daughter about what is about to begin in outreach, my husband just filled with the Spirit..I saw the enemy run, and watched God smile on us. Don't you love when you actually see it! My husband plays guitar, writes music and sings, and does it all well! HE is very gifted in this area. But lately he hasn't had much desire to play or sing, except for what he is already committed to, like praise band, his slot at the homeless shelter. But when he and God are on, he ministers to my heart through music. He rocked out a version last night of "In the Light", by Charlie Peacock/DC Talk. Decided it will be special music this week at church. The darkness was lifted!! Thank you Jesus!

Jesus said HE is the light of the world, and if HE is held up HE will gather all men to HIM self. In I Peter 2, we are reminded that we are holy nation that is a holy priesthood to spread the fragrance of knowing HIM. We have been delivered from darkness into HIS marvelous light!

The King reminded me gently nudging my heart that walking in the light is not only the best place to be, but to rejoice that we have been brought to it! I love when HIS joy is restored, and the excitement that comes with it. I was stuck yesterday that I need a prayer cover to do this outreach, and not sure if I would have it, and just paraniod about going with out it...HE is so awesome and sweet! Earlier in the week, HE brought to my attention the awesome Body of Christ that blogs with me, and how very beautiful you all are, and yesterday and this morning has again shown me your beauty, and how HE moves HIS hand and a prayer cover is formed! I can not express in words how that has touched my heart, and helped me to push past the enemy and his mouth. Thank you! (Tam, that comment that you thought the princess didn't approve...came in out of cyber space today:), and it was the most awesome encouragement, I can see why the enemy didn't want me to get that one!)

My heart has two songs this morning running through it...and I know that is from the KING, one is, "I want to be in the light as you are in the light, want to shine like the stars in the heavens..Oh Lord be my light and be my salvation, all I want is to be in the Light."
and the other, (God knows I do not like many hymns..and lately HE gives me one..God's humor)
"Freely, Freely you have recieved, Freely freely give. Go in my name and because you believe others will know that I live"

What an awesome God we have! We are truly blessed, and HE really truly does provide what I need, even my prayer cover! I am so thrilled by that...my license plate on the front of my car says 'Got Prayer? (it does a soul good)'
Have a great day Princess, I am praying for YOU!

09 August 2007

Princess, pray about everything

Soon a new outreach will be starting in my area. My husband and I will be organizing this, well actually it has already started to take form. We know from past experience that any time you go into the dark kingdom to set free captives (in Jesus Name), the opposition gets crazy intense. PRAYER! It is the single most needed resource. Praying on our part, prayer cover from the church, and as many prayer warriors as can be pulled together. After reading many books on this subject (over the last few years), I am still at the same thought..."don't know how it works, just know that it does, and HE did say pray without ceasing".

I am repentant in that I have been dragging my feet, and being in doubt. We have done this before, and have been involved with others, and it seems that when it is at its strongest...the enemy rushes in and rips it apart. Don't know why I can't seem to keep the thinking that God is in control even in those situations, but HE is. SO HE sends us again.

Recently I received a phone call from someone that the LORD had put in front of me in an outreach, and honestly, I wasn't sure that she was getting it. Her life was so messed up, drugs, alcohol, prostitution, her son was taken from her and given to his alcoholic father. Sometimes her numbness to the world just seemed to consume her. But she was always respectful. I was dismissed from that outreach/rehab because when they throw someone out, we were all to walk away from that person, and not get emotionally involved. That is what I did, I went after her. Because I just wanted her to know that I did not lie to her, and Jesus is real, and HE does want to make a difference, and Jesus did not throw her back to the street.

Long story short...she is now 2 years clean and sober, has her son back, works a full time job, and is active in her church with her new faith family. She is one of the most beautiful young ladies I know. She gives all the glory to GOD. Her phone call was awesome encouragement. As I think about it, and converse with God about the whole episode with being dismissed, and how sweet HE is to pick her up and love on her, HE reminds me .... The shepherd leaves the flock to find that one lost sheep. I had doubted that I heard HIM right, why would you send me some where that dismisses me, and got real ugly! HE just held me, and again I am forced to look at the differences in HIS ways. Service to the KING, its not just a job its an adventure! :)

Party is on in Heaven over the one...so we don't know if we are going to reach one or 100, but this we do know....pray pray pray pray pray....the shepherd is sending us out for another lost sheep, all for HIS glory, for the Kingdom. Pray that we will stay focused, pray that we will have great discernment against the enemies schemes. Pray for the heart(s) that are being prepared as we go in "search and rescue". God is good, all the time! I love HIS heart!

08 August 2007

Princess, it's all about ME

The past few days have been intense. And it is easy to lose the focus that everything, literally everything, is about HIM. So today I am praying again for all of HIM and none of me. HE has touched my heart and gently reminded me that all that I am so discouraged in is a matter of being Home Sick-Heaven being my home. I have been kicking everything that is not good and excellent, and striving for Holiness in the body of Christ, and in the church body as well. The truth of it all is that I am not going to see the unity I so want to see, not on earth anyway. If I could have all that I want for the body, we would all be home!

The KING has reminded me to continue to have a happy heart about the service I am in to HIM. Worship services (whether worshipful or not) are all about HIM, for HIM and to HIM. HE is capable to handle any who make a mockery of it, and to work in the hearts that make it all something it is not. How very capable HE is! HE is in control, and HIS ways are not mine. Whew! What relief that it is all about HIM, totally freeing me up to be exactly who HE has planned me to be, and to carry out the service to HIM that HE has ordained. Stay focused Princess, all eyes on Jesus, allow HIM to fill you with the love that you need for that moment, and grace to walk through whatever comes at you. HE is good! HE doesn't miss a beat.

There is a sadness today for those who are rejecting HIM. Since it is all about HIM, they are not rejecting me, but HIM. (can you see the freedom in this?) So today we move on this road again starting out strong from our quiet time, a new song on our lips, and happy that it is all about HIM. So today I pray for the body again to be strong in the Lord, to be overcomers in all that comes at them. I pray that the LORD will fill each of our hearts with HIS love so that we can give it to someone else. How I praise HIM that He does not grow weary of filling us, and it is HIS delight and desire that we love HIM and know HIM. We are the God Chasers of this generation, seeking out HIM and HIS perfecct will for us, and not just seeking blessings. We are blessed, and will continue to be blessed seeking HIM.

We bow before YOU, our KING, our Creator. YOU are everything we need and want. Everything is truly about YOU, and for you, and to you. Help us today to have heart more like Jesus, chasing your will, having a servant heart, and doing it all with a happy heart. We love you. There is none like you. Seeking YOU out today in everything we do. YOUR Princess in service to the KING

07 August 2007

Princess, love the body of Christ

I can hardly believe that I am about to write this, as I am a novice in this area. I have gone through some rough times, and my testimony is deliverance from a world that has no respect for God, and knowing full well that only God could deliver me from where I have been. My heart is strong in outreach, I know first hand how lost this world is, and how very much people need to know that there is hope. Sometimes I get overwhelmed in the need for more people to come out and help, because the fields are white with harvest but the workers are few. There is not much in the line of discipleship for new believers who require a hand to hold as they walk closer to Jesus. Do you know that the toughest worldly people when they come to a realization of a Real GOD, as scared to death of the changes that happen so quickly in thier thinking? Do you know that they hurt the same as all of us? Do you know that the blood of Jesus covers even the worst criminal? That is the power of the blood of Jesus, still running strong today, still changing hearts, and still walking through the streets touching the spiritually blind and making them see. hallejah Jesus!

So as you can see that is my heart, and I have asked the Lord several times in the past few years, "Why don't you just come back?, get me out of here!" HIS answer has been the same every time..."my bride is not ready", "love the body of Christ". I have to be honest in my answer to HIM...Your body is not nice, she is very critical, and judgemental, and she seems to pick and choose scriptures that work with whatever she is doing and disregard the rest. She is not welcoming to a stranger that is tattered, or smells bad. She does not want unchurched children climbing on the pews, and she does not have patience for their loud voices. My eyes have been opened to what HE has been telling me...she truly is not ready, and I have to love them the same as I do the lost. They may very well be lost too.

Praise is going up this morning for all that HE is showing me...

Thanking God for you my blog sisters, sistas, siestas, diva dollas, Princess', I have seen another heart of the body of Christ, and each one of you are totally beautiful, and a piece of HIS heart shown to me. You have all encouraged me greatly and blessed my heart. I have seen a true picture of Christ in these blog entries, and I thank HIM for leading me here, and for giving me you. I have longed for my sisters in Christ, to just get to know one...and HE sent many. HE always knows just how to touch my heart, and HE always gives me what I need to take the next step in following HIM. I love how you all are honest, and transparent, and love Jesus. I love how we all fall down and get back up, and lean on the Grace of God for whatever today brings. I do see Jesus bringing something good from the internet.

This morning as I pray to love the body of Christ, HE gave me picture of you all in my mind, and told me "you are doing it...this is my body" . Thank you Jesus!

Now I need to pray to love the ones who sit in churches, and are giving the body a bad rep. Well always a time of learning, and that willnot end til I meet HIM face to face. But how I am looking forward to that day. I want to hear HIM say, "Well done, my good and faithful servant".

Be encouraged in the Lord today, Princess you shine, and there is nothing more beautiful on this earth that seeing you all shine together!

06 August 2007

Princess, don't forget me

The world pulls and it steals little pieces of our heart, and inflicts hurt on us and then gives us a false sense of healing. Eventually we are duped into thinking that we are still on the road, but have forgotten that the King has not left us, and we are not battling alone. Sometimes the battle is not ours, and we are only to draw close to HIM as HE parts our Jordan rivers, and takes down our enemies. It is hard to do if we have forgotten HIM, and the role HE plays in our lives.

Once I got up very early, still dark out, with excitement because I planned to drive to the river to the overlook and catch the sunrise and do my quiet time there. I was excited because I knew from past experience that if I will just go out of my way to meet with the Lord, HE always shows up. The clouds rolled in, and there would be no visible sunrise this particular morning. Needless to say, I was bummin'. As I sat there I was praying for a break in the clouds and thinking I will just wait on HIM. HE never fails, and HE knows that I am here, and HE knows that just like the woman who touched HIS hem, I just want to touch HIM. Hours escaped me and I was packing up to leave, and I felt HIM touch me (not physically). I looked back at the sky, and there was the smallest ray of sunshine shooting through the clouds, and making a small beam of light on the river. HE spoke to my heart..."the sun is behind the clouds, but it is still there. If you watch long enough, you will see small rays of sunshine peak through. Do you believe that?" Of course I do. "then believe that sometimes you will not see me, but I am always there, and if you wait and watch for me, I will give you encourgement and show you little things that will delight your soul."

Shortly after that morning, I stepped into probably my darkest time. At wonderful time of healing, but I had no idea that would be the outcome. I remember as I was walking through my own spiritual wilderness...holding on to the truth that HE is here, HE is always here, I just can't see HIM. I focused on my Bible and knew ,with out a doubt, HE is here on all these pages. HE wrote this incredible love letter to me.

An eagle flew over me, and seemed to be showing off on the river, and I watched it for a long time, admired how it could just soar for long lengths of time without moving its wings. I thanked the Lord for showing me the Eagle. I stepped out of my darkness, and back into the light of HIS awesome fellowship. Remembering this:

No matter how dark it gets, no matter how the enemy tries to shove me back into the stronghold of fear, HE is always with me. When I can't think and things become clouded in my mind, run to my love letter from the KING, and in HIS perfect timing I will rise up on wings like eagles. Don't forget HIM, HE hasn't forgotten me.

Princess, HE is with you, and you also have HIS love letter written to you...rise up on wings like eagles..soar in HIS love!

03 August 2007

Princess, I AM

Have you ever woke up from the battle and known that it is over for the moment due to the song the King has laid on your heart? My battles have been huge lately, and I know it is because of the road I am on..seeking HIS face and not only HIS hand. Learning to love HIM with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. I challenge you if you have never prayed for HIM to give you a heart that loves HIM with all your heart, soul, mind and strength...Do it! But then hold on for the ride of your life! I have not been bored since taking this journey.

This morning I woke up knowing that I have had a rough couple of days, and anticipating another. I prayed, "I am not even starting this day if you are not coming with me", I felt HIM speak to my heart, "I am". As I begun to wake up more fully, HE placed on my heart, like only HE can do, a song that I have loved for many years, and somehow have forgotten. Intense encouragement from the Father. soon I was singing, and praising my King, and the rest just fell away. The song is from Nicole Nordeman, Woven and Spun. "I Am"....you really must listen to the song..I think its title may be Woven and Spun.

As a child I remember hearing for the first time the scripture being read "God said I AM"....Remember asking my mom...I am What??? What??...my mother was very annoyed with me. :) But I was honestly asking a serious question from a childs heart. Through the years HE has shown me what HE truly means by "I AM". How could I ever forget the awesome power of that name? As I study through the hebrew names given and reserved for the King, I ask HIM "will you be this for me", and HE always answers, "I AM". I think every verse in the song, speaks to a womans heart, in whatever stage of life she is presently in. Last night, I was pondering on what my sister, Princess Ang, at Little steps of Faith had written..."Who do you say that I am?" This morning I can answer simply.."I AM"!

Here is a line from the song that is taking over my mind this morning..."when I am weak, unable to speak, still I can call you by name..Creator, Savior, my Redeemer, Lord and King, beginning and the end..and HE says I AM."

Princess, whatever voids you are feeling today, what ever empty places are stirring in you, HE is the very thing you long for, and the very exact thing you need...healer, best friend, mighty warrior, lover, provider, ... I think you get point. Praise you Lord! YOU are our "I AM". Princess to Princess ( HE is a great dancer as well!)

02 August 2007

Princess, why so discouraged?

Sometimes this road is very discouraging...but only because we have lost our focus on what Jesus has said. During my Quiet Times, regardless of my study, I love to read through something in the Gospels, specifically what was Jesus saying, literally. Today I found myself in Matthew 7...as I read again the words of Jesus giving instruction to not throw pearls to swine...I followed the cross reference to Proverbs 9:7-8..Jesus was talking about not rebuking a non-believer, and that rebuking a wise man (or believer) will make him wiser. MMMMMMM...still wondering why Jesus would go this way in this talk. (God is not redundant, and does not talk aimlessly) So I followed the rest of HIS talk and landed again in the whole truth that this road is narrow, and few will find it. Of course we want them all to find it, but the truth is that we are blessed to find it! But our Sweet Savior did not stop there, and did not leave us hanging in the blessing as if we are exempt and there is no other thing to keep in mind. So I followed HIM on to the next section...(still in Matthew 7). We will know if someone is on this road or not by the fruit that shows in their life...and likewise, our fruit that should show in our life. The ones who are truly on this road will be serving the KING and carrying out HIS will.

That speaks encouragement to my soul this morning. So many times I stumble while looking around me and seeing those I think are Godly, wondering why they do not have a call on thier life, and why they seem to have a much longer leash. I believe I am on the short leash, and it is springy at that. But the Lord has shown me to rejoice in it...I have found the narrow road, and following after the Father and being willing to obey in HIS leading is all that I need. There really is no room for discouragement in the Light of Jesus, there is just too much to rejoice about.

I love the WORD, and I love how HE is so very sweet to walk us through the pages and help us to apply what seems so familiar. It is truly alive and active!

Thank you Jesus for setting the pace, and giving us your words to help us understand all that we need to. Thank you for carrying the burdens of today, and lighting your fire in our hearts. How incredibly beautiful you are. Thank you for reminding me to pray for those you trouble me, and to bless those who try to tear me apart. Thank you for the reminder that you did not come for the well, you came for the sick. That is very humbling as I am forced to remember that without you we are sick, and lost, and pending the second death. Thank you for saving me, and for how you continue to stretch your hand out to a hurting world, full of sin, and loving on us. What a great an awesome God you are, Thank you for being my God! your Princess, in service to her King

Princess L/Princess K

Princess L and her Knight